Life Itself Is A Choice

Making decision can be a difficult task for me, especially when the choice I make comes with a heavy consequence that I have to bear. Be it a positive or negative impact, I believe it is of human nature that every single one of us wants to have the best solution for the things that we are being offered. To decide is to take responsibility of your life and to be in control of it. That, undoubtedly gives people the fear of wanting to be overly decisive in their thoughts and action.

In the past, I used to shadow or even follow the decision that my friends had made without giving a serious thought on the probable end results. For then, I felt that as long as I do my best in the things that I am tasked, all things will turn out fine and well within my own expectations. Just as I joined Scouts not because I love Scouts and I chose Poly not because I felt that Poly is better a route for me take. Whatever it is, I strongly hold the belief that anyone can still continue to excel or do well in the things that he or she has no particular interest in, so long as he or she is willing to change to adapt to the reality. In fact, there aren't any tricks to that and the key is just to force yourself to do your best. Yes, that indeed requires a lot of discipline, but remember, quality is never an accident; it is always the results of sacrifice, hardwork and sincere effort.

But now, times are different and things have changed. The strongest principle of growth lies in the choice that you make and I feel that as an adult now, I should be mature enough in my thinking as to decide for the things that I want to do and see in my life. More importantly, I do not want to shuffle off the responsibility upon the shoulders of other people. For that, I have taken a couple of weeks to make out a decision on my intended university for further studies. Though to some people, there might only be two fixed options in my list, but for me, I know that the decision I make will decide where I would be next time. Hence, I will definitely not make it a random gamble.

Therefore, without further comments or additional elaborations to support my point, here it is. Despite all the oppositions from my parents, my final decision is - to accept the offer from NTU. So, to put it, that will be Nanyang Technological University - Chemical & Biomolecular Engineering - 2010, for me.

The next thing is, I am going to opt out for the Scouts Malayisa Trip that I had initially looked forward to. Sad, but I have no other choice. If I were to quit my job because of the six days trip, I will probably lose a source of income if I am unable to find myself a job from June to September.

Not many people know about this, but seriously, I need to find money to support myself as I have to pay for my own university school fees. In fact, my parents did not support the idea of me furthering my studies as they are not financially-capable of paying the large amount of expenses for me. But seriously, who can I blame? I have already paid for my two semesters of poly education fees, so what is more for that bulk university fees. Bank loan, scholarships, bursaries, giving tuitions...There is definitely a way to solve it.

Lastly, before I end this post, I just want to take the opportunity to mention and thank Shawn Tan once again. He is really a true friend to be with and for that I really regretted to only realise it at the last semester of our studies. Whether he reads this or not, I want to say that it is really a great time to meet up with you again. Thank you so much for your help that you had extended to me, not just simply for following me to Sim Lim Square to get my thumbdrive late on Friday night after work. I sincerely appreciate the fact that you had made the extra effort to walk to the train station with me despite the significantly shorter journey home by taking the bus just outside the complex.

Of course, not disremembering all your extensive contributions to our PED Project! I won't forget how I msn-ed you on those days before the report submission late in the night to help me rush all the last minute research work, reports and your Google-Sketch masterpiece. And on that day after you and I submitted the Report, I msn-ed you telling you that I had a nightmare due to the submission. It is really a pity that none of us got the module prize for PED for I was once pretty confident that our group deserved that.

Hope to keep in contact with you even after the graduation day, and I apologise for not accepting your offer of giving your dearest sister Combined-Science tuition. Three years are long enough for anyone to forget their secondary school syllabus so give me some time to revise my sciences and will get back to you again. This is because, I felt that if I were to give anyone tuition, I must be very confident in what I want to teach and what I want them to learn at the very end of a lesson. Confusing a lost mind and making things worst at the end of a day is surely not my principle and of course, I would want to see my students doing well after I tutored them.

Thank you!